June 2011
May 2011
im hurting to the point where i know im gna kill my lungs. my emotions are really getting the best of me. especially after last night. i know im sad like everyday, just cant help it. brian you’re right life does fucking suck.
I feel shitty right now, plus i have an interview in the morning =T
it was weird earlier, isaiah was sleeping in class during our movie, he was snoring a little and i couldn’t help but think of you. when i slept next to you and you’d snore like that haha. i found myself slouching in my seat getting sleeping as well. how weird, i get sleepy when someone snores -_-
its nights like these
that make me wish i still had someone that i can just:
- call and talk to on the phone before i go to sleep
- just come over just to come over
- sit or lay down and watch television with
- go out on a food run with no matter how late
- lay down next to and hide under a blanket with
- put their arm around me while i listen to their heart beat
but in this world there are few who even want...
i’ve come to the conclusion that in life, we all need to learn to let things go, to not hold grudges, love those who are still in our lives, and not mourn those who have left.
zoning out for a few minutes
another productive day:
- received another 4 packages in the mail
- interview at CHSB went pretty well, waiting for the next one with HR
- printed out lecture notes for anatomy and completed them
- printed out nsci300 notes
still more work to be done tonight, gotta read my lab manual for tomorrow’s anatomy lab then also finish up a chapter for my science and technology class.
couldnt...
I think im having one of those what the fuck am i doing with my life moments and its irritating me to no end. I truly dont know whats going on with me right now. My mind does not feel at peace i am constantly fighting with myself. Cravings arent getting any better and school is stressing me out. There are sooo many things that im unhappy about myself and i wish i could change it in an instant...
D'OH, WHAT A FAT CAT :3
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