almost time to head out for school, i should go find something to eat for breakfast. somewhat ready to take on the day.
Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore (via seemyeveryflaw
my self-esteem took a nose dive. man i feel so low. i suppose positive thought for the rest of the week. i need to buy some maderma cream for my wrist - i hate feeling it and looking at it. good night.
its hard to focus on what you’re supposed to be doing like school, when your mind and your thoughts are a million miles away. i’m going to pray tonight. to ask god for forgiveness for all the sins and wongs that i have done. pray that he sends down a guardian angel to watch over me tonight. too sad to do anything. if i didnt have school i think i would just lay in bed again for 3 days.
or i could just grow up and not complain about anything. i dont want to feel for a while. i could be more assertive, i could be less nice, i could be less sweet, more stuff would probably get done. my biggest downfall is my emotions always getting the best of me. working on putting a lock on that. goal for 2012 is to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve.